It’s been years

I’ve not logged onto Niko’s site in years…. YEARS. I pay for it every year because it’s special to me. Our journey is here… our story.

It’s been 5,380 days since Niko left me. I adopted 2 kitties later that year… Cameron and Jasper. Cameron passed away in 2022. He was the first companion since Niko that I had to make that decision for… and it was at the emergency vet. I can do hard things. I’ve done them before… I did it again and I’ll have to do it several more times.

In 2010 I adopted Chance… who just turned 14 yesterday. He’s got some major illnesses now, but he’s still here, for a bit longer.

In 2011 I adopted Hayley. My first dog since Niko. She brought him back to life for me and we’ve had the best 13 years together so far. She’s been an inspiration in so many ways… her joy and passion for all things fun. Her playfulness and flirtatious side. We retired from agility in 2020 after she won at UKI Nationals in 2019, ending our amazing agility career. Now we do long walks and enjoy flirting with young shelties. At 15, we know our time is short, but we are happy.

Jasper is my ‘healthiest’ senior with only minor ailments. I feel like it’ll just be me and him one day.

So much has changed in the last 15 years since Niko left. I am a completely different person for one. I have no idea where life will take me next… and balancing 3 senior animals has me struggling. They are worth it though.

I’m sorry for all the comments I’ve not replied to in the last few years. I feel sad that I missed opportunities to provide comfort. I am happy that some of you, however, found comfort in things on this site. We are so lucky to share unconditional love with our furry companions.

Maybe I’ll write more here… when I lose another one. Maybe there is not much more to share. I’ll feel it out.

I still miss Niko… all the time. I still think of him and remember him. Sometimes he blends in with Hayley and that makes me smile. He’ll never be lost. We never lose them. They will always live on inside us.